Showing posts with label New Year Resolutions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Year Resolutions. Show all posts

To Drive The Cold Winter Away by Tess Berry-Hart

It's still winter! The bone-shaking chill of a new January with its winds, ice storms, broken healthy resolutions and humourless deadlines (tax payments, school applications, etc) can make even the bravest of us want to curl up in a cave next to a blazing fire and hibernate until spring arrives.

And to some of us who suffer from depression (episodes of persistent sadness or low mood, marked loss of interest and pleasure) either constant or intermittent, winter can be one of the hardest times. Depression being a multi-headed hydra ranging from many states of unipolar to bipolar, I'm not suggesting that there is one single type of depression; for instance not all of us are affected by the winter or weather, while some people who don't even have depression in the clinical sense might be experiencing a mild case of the winter blues, or Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD).

Creativity is like a fire that we can stoke to drive away the cold winter (whether physical or psychological, internal or external). So I'm deep in my cave trying to work out ways that I can stoke my creativity without resorting to biscuits!

Bibliotherapy's been around for a while now, and is the literary prescription of books and poems against a range of "modern ailments" - including depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem. A form of guided self-help, it's not exactly a new idea - the ancient Greeks spoke of "catharsis" - the process of purification or cleansing, in which the observer of a work of theatre could purge themselves of emotions such as pity and fear through watching and identifying with the characters in a play. All of us in the modern world can attest to the feeling of connection and joy when an author so precisely describes a state that we are ourselves experiencing, and the nail-biting, cliff-hanging state of knowing exactly what our heroine or hero is going through. We root for him or her because s/he represents ourselves battling our own demons in an idealised meta-state.

But how does bibliotherapy work? According to the various proponents, it helps perpetuate a shift in thinking, so that things are not so inflexible (black and white thinking, for all you cognitive-behavioural depressives out there!) which is crucial to tackling depression. Being able to gain distance and perspective by viewing problems through the lens of fictional characters means that in real life our fixed thought-patterns which contribute to our problems can start to become unpicked.

And of course, identification isn't the only joy to be found in books; good old-fashioned escapism is surely the reason why many of us read so avidly. A new world, a new family, a new life, perhaps even new biology or physics, takes us away momentarily from the mundane world so we can return refreshed, hopefully to see our lives with new eyes.

I've obviously been self-medicating for a long time, but I always called it comfort-reading. By comfort-reading I mean a well-known book that you can plunge into at will like a warm bath or a pair of slippers. At school when I was anxious about exams or bullies I would find solace in re-reading the heroic adventures of Biggles or the magical quest of Lord of the Rings; at university it was in the dreamy memories of Brideshead and the vicissitudes of Billy Liar or Lucky Jim. When I started my first office jobs I would read 1984 or Brave New World (odd choices for comfort-reads but I think it was to remind myself that things could actually be worse!) but when I started writing my own books, I ...er ... stopped reading for some years. I think my tiny little brain could only take so much exercise!

I started comfort-reading again when we first had our children; during long and frequently painful breast-feeding sessions my husband would read my childhood favourites Charlotte's Web and Danny the Champion Of The World to me as distraction and encouragement. And these days my prospective comfort list numbers hundreds of books; for me, reading is re-reading.

So what could I take to bolster myself against the winter chill? I've written myself a prescription but I'd be interested in hearing yours!

1) A dose of James Herriot's short animal stories, to be administered when needed (they are nice and short so you're not left hanging after a few pages) or chapters from Jerome K Jerome's Three Men In A Boat, or virtually anything by PG Wodehouse;

2) A daily dose of half an hour "joy-writing" - half an hour in the morning when I can sit down and let ideas spill out onto the page. (If it ends up with me writing about what happened last night then so be it. It can often lead to something more ...)

3) A small creative project on the horizon, easily identifiable and manageable, that I can look forward to; in this case getting a small group of actors together to read through a new draft of a play that I've written (there'll be a blog post on this soon so stay tuned!)

4) Connection with others - I'm a member of a local book group, which not only makes me keep on top of what new books are coming out, but also participating in the joy of discussion; there's nothing more frustrating than reading a good book only to realise that nobody you know has read it!)

So I think that's enough to start barricading myself up against the January snows!

But what about you? What kind of comfort-reads do you enjoy to drive the cold winter away?


The Grand Clear Out


It’s late in the month to be talking about NY Resolutions. There’s already been plenty of time for them to be made, broken and forgotten til next year. I could apologise for bringing up the distasteful topic on the 13th of the month, but I won’t because one of my resolutions – many years ago – was never to apologise insincerely.
new year, new resolutions 

This year I’ve resolved to lose weight – this time from my unwieldy monstrous work-in-progress as well as from my unwieldy monstrous body; to practise an hour day on my (beautiful, new, expensive – whoops, what happened to the resolve not to be extravagant?) guitar; to keep my accounts monthly and – to keep my study tidy.

In pursuit of the latter I spent several days having a Grand Clear Out. I had notebooks containing the planning and in some cases the first drafts of every novel I have written – and that means, I’m sorry to say, three more novels than have actually been published. Many notebooks. Pretty notebooks, because they were bought from Paperchase when I was working fulltime and therefore comparatively rich. And I happen, like many writers, to be a stationery geek. I couldn’t possibly destroy them. They were a record of years of hard work and hopes.

Some of these notebooks contain the first drafts of published novels. Some don't. 

Well yes. But they were also taking up space and gathering dust, and of no interest to anyone, not even me. I do have a few MSs that I show at author visits, but I don’t want to hang on to rough outlines of aborted projects. I don’t kid myself that some American library is going to make me an offer for them. I no longer wish to see anyone else’s rough first drafts, discovered and published after death – I used to, before I was published, but now I always feel uncomfortable reading something that the author didn’t intend to make public.

So the notebooks were shredded and left out for recycling. The bin lorry has come and they are no more. I have more space in my study, and am no longer surrounded by the ghosts of the-novels-that-never-were. If I get run down by the recycling lorry and someone has to clear out my house there will be fewer notebooks for them to tackle.


OK, I may have kept one or two. But there’s always next year’s Grand Clear Out.


And on Monday I called into Muji – their notebooks are gorgeous and just that bit cheaper as befits a struggling fulltime writer with a resolution to be less extravagant. I may have stocked up a little. After all, there's plenty of space now. 

lovely new notebook drawer
other brands are available

An Author's New Year Resolutions

I hope it's not too late for a New Year's Resolutions post. These are the same ones I make and break every year, they might strike a chord.

1. Stop checking sale rankings every five minutes. They don't even mean anything, and besides, you said were boycotting .

2. That didn't mean you could go on Twitter instead.

3. Take more exercise. OK, well at least try and stretch. Try reaching for that book over there without leaving your chair. Reach. Stre-e-tch.....Oh. I hope that wasn't a precious coffee cup. I'm sure the stains will come out.

4. Stop checking your email addictively. Remember that your publisher will reply in a minute, they're probably just really busy.

5. Wait, why are you on again? What did we agree?

6. Read some books. Yes, a book book, not a tweet or a blog or a photo of your friend's cupcake platter. You're on public transport, what kind of example are you settting, squinting at your phone? You can't sit there being all anxious about the decline of reading if you're part of it.

7. If school food is so inedible, why don't you prepare a packed lunch once in a while for your author's visits instead of complaining bitterly inside your head on the way home?

8. Are you really typing in to the search bar again? You only checked a few seconds ago. How many were you expecting to sell in that time?

9. This isn't your bookshop. Leave everything where you found it. Was that pile of your books in the window when you came in? I didn't think so.

10. Stop checking your email! They will reply in a minute, OK?

11. No, Facebook is just as much a waste of time as Twitter. Close that browser down.

12. Do some research in a library (if you can find one that is still open) and not all on Wikipedia. It's amazing what you can find out, and you might even stay on topic, rather than researching one place name and ending up reading about the history of the apple strudel for two hours.

13.  Go for a walk every now and then. Forget about it for a while. It's better for you than sobbing and beating your fists against the wall.

14. Come up with a clever answer for when people ask "And how many copies have you sold?"

15. Come up with a clever answer for when school children ask "How much money do you make?"

16. Come up with a clever answer for when your bank asks "Why should we extend it ?"

17. Yes, using the app on your iPad counts. Put. It. Away.

18. Take some deep breaths. The publisher's reply was fine. Yes, it was.

19. Wait, you want to contact the hacking collective Anonymous and ask them to hack in to the servers to do what? No.

20. You have friends and family, apart from the ones in your head and on the page. They might actually like to see you once in a while.

21. How on earth did you get hold of Jeff Bezos' mobile number? You are out of control.

22. Try not to sound quite so breathlessly excited every time your agent rings. It is only once a year, you could at least learn to feign cool.

23. There was something else too, it's on the tip of my tongue...which reminds me, make more notes, do a memory course, but get better at remembering all those brilliant ideas.

24. Try not to stare into space quite so much, especially in public. You're really freaking people out. Hang on a minute though...

25. That's it. You got there. Knew there was one last thing. Write more words, on the page. In fact, forget all the others, you're going to do them anyway. So just stick to this one. Write more.

 Piers Torday
@PiersTorday
www.pierstorday.co.uk





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